~iNi Miss Huda~

at 1st when i get know her...
we had in the same class in TTJ..
that was in form 4...
she was sitting in front of the class...
while me, at the back...
we started to know more each other...
by the end of form 4...

started from that until we get together in form 5..
moreover, we had in the same class, same room....
we always spend time 2gether...
study until mid nite..
eat together...
going 4 class together...
sharing every little single story...
laugh, tear, angry, sad, lonely...
all we had share 2gether...

at that time, i was the happiest person...
becoz i had some one to sharing everythings...
we set up our missions...
to achive our ambitions...
we fill the form 2gether...
to enter into matrix...

at matrix, we also together...
eventhough we had different class n block...
but i still can feel that we are still close...
we still eat, study n doing joys together...
to achive our mission becoz some people say..
matrix is harder than form 6...
so, every weekend we stay up and study...
u had thought me a lots...
i really appreciate it..
until we get a good result..
but you more better than me...
i don't mind becoz i know u r so clever than me...
again we meet in the same university...

we had also the same class, same college...
in 1 sem, i still can feel that we are so close...
but then...

starting from sem 2 and above...
u had changed a alot...
maybe i's 2 sensitive person...
or maybe i'm thinking too negative...
but only God now what i feel..
we became so far...
even though from external part..
we looks so close but inside deep in my heart..
u r going 2 far...

however so far u from me...
i just want 2 let u know that...
i really love u so much as my best fren...
even though u had left me behinde...
even though u forgot me...
even though u had a new fren...
even though u make me cry...
even though u didn't looking at my face...
even though u ignore me when i'm sick...
even though u angry with me...
even though we are not at same level..
even though we will be seperate one day...

i really miss the moment we sleep together in 1 bed...
i really miss the moment we eat both together..
i really miss the moment we spent time together...
i really miss the moment we chatting n tell our story...
i really miss the moment u tell me about yours (no secret anymore)...
i really miss all that!!


thanks 4 everything my fren...
thanks for be by my side always...
thanks 4 making me laugh..
thanks coz always help me when i'm in trouble...
becoz u r the best person that i ever had forever in my life...

How do I tell you I'm sorry...
With a gesture, a look, a touch?...
How is it I never realized...
I hurt you so very much?...

I do not ask forgiveness...
A comfort I'll never deserve...
I merely want to let you know...
But I cannot find the nerve...

To finally confront you, face-to-face...
To look you in the eye...
To face your wrath, your apathy...
Too terrified to try...

You called me selfish, I turned away...
I festered and I fled...
Cutting and wounding and lashing out...
Just to see if you bled...

Betraying and deceiving you...
I surely had no right...
To snatch away such a precious gem...
A dark thief in the night...

Four years and forever passed...
To bring us to this day...
When I present these simple words...
I never thought to say...

The time has come, it's long past due...
To put aside my fear...
Would this confession torture you...
Or have you longed to hear...

To hear those two forbidden words...
To vanquish all the pain...
To understand my dearest wish...
To know you once again...

The years aged me remarkably...
Though they have not made me wise...
I do know I erred irrevocably...
For that I apologize...Huda

special 2 you SABRINA....

A true friend
A true friend is the one who picks you up when you fall
A true friend is one that won't lie
A true friend is there when you call
A true friend is there when you want to die
A true friend knows just what to say
A true friend won't care what other people think
A true friend will help you find your way
A true friend will make sure you don't sink
A true friend will help you choose your path
A true friend will know when something is wrong
A true friend has to sometimes face your wrath
A true friend makes you feel like you belong
A true friend ;)

today i was so tired n sleepy...
dah la x abis wat revision lagi..
mid sem taxation this friday...
waaaaahhhhh!!!!
tensionnyer............
hopefully i can do it well yah!!!
plez, wish me luck k...
hehehehe....

ain, sab, ain mazalam, bugee, erni, zaty, iqa, hanim, moja n me..
we go there by 2 car..
1st car-hanim drive includes bugee, erni, moja, hanim n iqa..
2nd car- ain mazalam n ain drive includes me, zaty, sab...
when we sampai sane terus choose tempat n take order...
we had choose ikan siakap 2 rasa, tomyam (not tom ayam),
sotong goreng celup tepung n kailan goreng..
air fresh oren n they ask me 2 blanjer..
the i said that i don't have enought money..
tengok la mane nak korek..huhuhu;P

sambil menunggu hidangan siap..
we all jalan2 n snape several pictures...
banyak la gak bergambar..
maklumlah masing2 crazy when jumpe camera..
then dah penat amik gmbr..
we go back at our sit n waiting 4 our dishes...

yummy2...
x sbr gasenyer..
hehehehe...
sedapnyer...
so, bile waktu buke dah sampai kitorang pon bace doa..
n ape lagi mkn la..
but then, we only get our ikan siakap 3 rasa n kailan...
so, bedal 2 jer la dulu..
while eating, tom yam plak sampai..
then baru sotong celup tepung...
geram gak la..
coz nasik kat pinggan da abis..
tapi lauk lmbt smpai..
huhuhu...
but, sabar kan separuh dari iman..

abis sume kami bedal, licin 2...
hahahaha....
then iqa pay n we only pay RM110
kire sorg dlam RM11 la..
ok what, makan gamai2 kan..

then kitorang carik surau or masjid 4 maghrib..
jumpe plak surau kat kastam..
iqa's idea..
kalo kene tangkap x tau la..hehehe...
then nak jalan2 kat pekan kangar gak n find klinik...
coz sab sakit mate plak dah..
cian die...
then we as a second car n follower 2 hanim..
bile terlepas pandang jer sesat...
huhu..
so tired to find them, call them n ask..
where are them n so on...

sampai2 kolej we get so tired..
they my key plak tertinggal dlm kete..
adoi..
problem jer..
tunggu plak abg li dtg 2 bring the car key..
huhuhu...

so, in conclusion we had e graet time together..
even though i had a little bit quarrel with erni..
but then i think we r ok la..
mane ade gaduh pon..
hehehehe...
watpe nak gaduh2..
masing2 dah cukup matang 2 face the reality right??
ok, here's some picture there...

there's a story behind the scene...
it start yesterday..like this...
i'm at lab at that time..
then kuzul datang..
then i told him about my laptop's problem..
he said come la bawak laptop mai cini...
i pon balik bilik then amik laptop..
at that time sab was not in the room...
so, i just amik laptop then go back to lab...

suddently ain msg me n ask whether i took my laptop or not..
then i reply la x..
saje nak uji diorang xtually..
then bugee plak call me n ask me again the same question..
i said no gak..
saje nak test diorang again becoz..
when bugee call me i heard diorang gelak2...

then bugee call me again to confirm that i did'not took the laptop...
then i said "xde la g"
pastu x nak la diorang cuak sgt
then i bagi msg kat bugee said that
"org amik la latop, mesti korang cuak kan, hehehe"

pastu bugee call me back n said:
"huda, ko jgn la main2 lis(RA) siap da bagi tau encik shahrin tau"
then i said back
"nape x tunggu org balik dulu"
then zaty msj me plak..
she said that everybody was worried too much
xpecially sab becoz she will felt guity..
if i come back from lab n see that my laptop was missing...
she will think that i will blame her...

when i sampai bilik, i senyap dulu..
takot sebenarnyer...
but then i salam sab n say sorry 4 everything...
hehehe...
konon2 nak wat wakena beb
tapi alih2 diri sendiri plak kene mintak maaf kat sume org...
huhuhu...

for all the person yg involve dlm rakaman ni..
i want 2 appologize k..
ala, bukan slalu wat korang cuak..
hehehe
sowie ea,
ain, ain mazalam, bugee, zaty, iqa, SAB, moja, izzah, ummie, lis(RA)..
n my neighbour n all la..
sorry again ea, thanks coz worried bout me..
that's mean that u all really love me kan..
right?? ok..
keep on smiling..hehehe